Restless mind


Wherever the mind wanders,
restless and diffuse in its
search for satisfaction without,
lead it within;
train it to rest in the Self.
Abiding joy comes to those
who still the mind…
they become one with God.

– The Bhagavad Gita

Here I am, about to delve into “the manuscript slog” on Serpent of Colchis –  a little later than I planned to start, but there we have it – and I find myself struggling to concentrate, my mind sliding away from the task in hand, distracted by external factors – music, tv (I never watch tv!), sewing, even tidying up, suddenly seem much more attractive, and of course there’s the endless fascination of Twitter and Forward Motion to keep me from actually starting the work.

To paraphrase “the cat in the hat” – this mess is so big and so deep and so tall I can not sort it out, there is no way at all! Sadly, there is no cat to come in and do a magic trick or two to sort this out, there is only me myself & I, and I am the one who has to wade through this lot.

So. I need to still my mind, switch off from all the internal and external distractions and allow myself to sink into this book and let my muse guide me through it (in the absence of God). I have the high level understanding of what and who it is about, and I know what I need to do to take the sodden lump that it is now and remould it into the book I want it to be. There is just the awful realisation that there is a long way to go and a lot to do to get there. Perhaps I am workshy? I don’t think so, it’s just a rather daunting task ahead, HOWEVER, this is the first of the big milestones on my task list for the year, and I don’t want to welch out before I’ve even started. If I fail on this, then I’ll struggle with everything else. I shall bring my two guiding words into mind – COMPLETE and ENJOY. I need to complete this novel because I enjoyed writing it in the first place, and I want to enjoy the finished article. *THAT* is motivation enough.

I have one big change to kick off with. I need to introduce a character who features in part III here and now, and by doing so I can externalise some of the conflicts in the opening chapter to a greater degree – it also gives me an opening to bring the various storylines to a complete & coherent close – *this* novel is a standalone, and there will be no sequel.

And on that optimistic bombshell, I’d best get to work . . . wish me luck?


One Response to “Restless mind”

  1. Nice posting. Do you know about this edition of the Gita?

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